August 31, 2009

Zee Avi - Kantoi

Semalam I call you, you tak answer.
You kata you keluar pergi dinner.
You kata you keluar dengan kawan you.
But when I called Tommy he said it wasn't true.

So I drove my car pergi Damansara.
Tommy kata maybe you tengok bola.
Tapi bila I sampai you, you tak ada.
Lagilah I jadi gila.

So I called and called sampai you answer.
You kata sorry sayang tadi tak dengar.
My phone was on silent, I was at the gym.
Tapi latar belakang suara perempuan lain.

Sudahlah sayang, I don't believe you.
I've always known your words were never true.
Why am I with you, I pun tak tahu.
No wonderlah my friends pun tak suka you.

So I guess that's the end of our story.
Akhir kata she accepted his apology.
Tapi last last kita dapat tahu she was cheating too.
With her ex boyfriend's best friend - Tommy.

August 25, 2009

Hot Sunny Day~

Just some pictures of me. Shot by my Dad & Mum. ^_^

August 21, 2009


If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you,
be gentle with yourself
There is nothing wrong with you.
Love just didn’t chose to rest in the other person’s heart.

If you find someone else in love with you and you don’t love him,
feel honored that love came and called at your door,
but gently refuse the gift you cannot return.
Do not take advantage and do not cause pain

How you deal with love is how you deal with you,
and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys,
even if our lives and ways are different.

If you fall in love with another ,
and he falls in love with you,
and then love chooses to leave,
do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame, let it go.
There is a reason and there is a meaning.
You will know in time.

Remember you don’t choose love.
Love chooses you.
All you can really do is accept it for all the mystery when it comes into your life.
Feel the way it fills you to over-flowing, then reach out and give it away.

Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you.
Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit
Give it to the world around you in anyway you can
There is where many lovers go wrong.
Having been so long without love they understand love only as in need.
They seek their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love,
and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.

The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing,
but as their love cools, they revert to seeing love as need.
They cease to be someone who generates love instead become someone who seeks love

They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift,
and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away.
Remember this and keep it to your heart

Love has its own time ,its own seasons and its own reason for coming and going
You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into saying.
You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you.
But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover
there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do.
Love always has been and always will be a mystery.
Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life.


August 14, 2009

Aizat - Pergi

Sayu terpisah
hikayat indah kini hanya tinggal sejarah
berhembus angin rindu
begitu nyamannya terhidu wangian kasihmu

hujan lebat mencurah kini
bagaikan tiada henti
kaulah laguku kau irama terindah
tak lagi kudengari

kau pergi.. pergi..
sepi tanpa kata
terdiam dan kaku tak daya kau kulupa
apa pun kata mereka
biarkan kenangan berbunga di ranting usia

hujan lebat mencurah kini
bagaikan tiada henti
kaulah laguku kau irama terindah
tak lagi kudengari

kau pergi.. pergi..

hujan lebat mencurah kini
bagaikan tiada henti
kaulah laguku kau irama terindah
tak lagi kudengari

kau pergi.. pergi..
kau pergi.. pergi..
kau pergi.. pergi..

Pete Teo - I Go

So long, fare the well
The dancer and the dancing days have taken leave and fell
So turn down this bed of stone
Quench me with the deadly nightshade from the rose that you belong

The long December rain is falling now
Running down on streets to nowhere
Music is my life you're my sweetest nightingale
But I can't hear it here no more
And I go
I go

Hush now, don't shake or break
Words have fallen silent like soldiers to the grave
No matter what they do or say
Lay me on the sleepy meadow by the tracks upon your face

ATILIA - ANGEL (OST Talentime)

I have a dream of you I can't defined
You've been on my mind
Don't go
I feel lost without you by my side
Lost and on my own
Yeah I'm falling for an angel

Your brightest star is shining next to mine
Every night and day
You know
Stars exploded then they fade away
Then they fade away
Yeah I'm falling for an angel
Yeah I'm falling for an angel

Would you please be my babe
Come by and I lay you down
I'm loving when you say I love you too

Won't you please be my honey
I'm sorry that I let you down
Your eyes are breaking my heart in two
Break my heart in two

May the one above us keep you safe
Every night and day
If he knows
How I love the smile all on your face
When you are here to stay

Yeah I'm falling for an angel
Yeah I'm falling for an angel

June 23, 2009

Aku benci kerana mencintaimu

Artis:Faizal Tahir
Lirik/Lagu: Bencinta

Benarkan ku ‘tuk berbicara…
Bicara terus ke hati mu.. Hati mu..
Hati yang penuh rasa ragu
Jangan terus pergi
Tanpa mendengar ku
Mungkin mudah
Untuk kau terus berlalu
Nanti dulu
Berikanlah waktu
Untuk aku, untuk kamu

Ingatkah lagi waktu kau bersama ku
Kaku aku melihat mu
Lidah kelu sedangkan aku
Mahu kau tahu
Aku cinta pada mu
Benci pada mu
Cinta pada mu

Ke tepi lihat ku berlalu
Pasti itu yang terbaik untuk ku
Tiada lagi mahu ku tahu
Tentang hidup kamu
Tentang mati kamu
Aku tahu
Engkau tahu apa yang mata ku tahu
Apa yang kau tunggu
Mahu aku buka pintu?

Ingatkah lagi waktu kau bersama ku
Kaku aku melihat mu
Sedang aku mahu kau tahu
Dengar kata ku
Aku cinta pada mu
Benci pada mu
Cinta pada mu

Sakitnya aku
Membenci kamu
Sakit lagi mencintai mu
Dan aku pergi
Tapi kembali
Benci aku mencintai diri mu
Ku benci… Kamu
Ku cinta… Kamu

April 16, 2009

Photo Edit

All these photos are edited by my friend Naem. Photography by Tony(KL), DorisJ and Dolly(KK)(Not at the same place and time).

March 13, 2009

OMG! What happened?!

It was a rainy night as usual, me in my room in front of my pc surfing the net And as always everyday and night my cat will make so much noise with his "meow-ing", which always drives people at home crazyyyy. So back to where i was, i was chatting with my friend then my cat "meow-ed" in my room like he was calling me. so i turned to find him....

...and there he was. i was like "Astagaaaaaaa!!!! 3GGGG!!!...."
i carried him out my room to the living room,saw my mum was surfing the net too. quickly i said 'Mum,tingu 3G... dia pgi main sna longkang lagi.."(yes,it was not his first time),my mum looked and then she laughed and said "apa punya kucing ni?! capat kasi mandi dia."
3G smells so baddddd,bau longkang. before we could clean him up,he keeps on running into my room hiding under my study table. but we did cleaned him up,while cleaning him up we saw that he got into a fight AGAIN. maybe that's why he's so dirty,haiyaaa. sudah la gay cat,suka cari gaduh pula. my mum scolded 3G,then 3G ran back to my room and hide under the table again. he dried himself up and went to sleep didn't came out from under the table until the next day. making noise all over again.

March 11, 2009

March 4, 2009

Happy Birthday Mum!

Happy Birthday Mummy! Have a wonderful Birthday! I Love You Mum...

March 2, 2009


When i was at my teen age(gosh! i'm NOT a teenager nemore). i Love writing down my feelings on a piece of paper,some i throw away some i just kept somewhere people can't find. So i was cleaning up my room this afternoon and stumbled upon so many papers and books that i've written down my feelings on. Some funny memories build up, some sad memories and some are just silly things that i wrote when i was in highschool.

Well,there's this note that really captured me. I myself was shocked that i wrote something that has a deep meaning to it. There's no date on it,but i know that i wrote this when i was in highschool. And it goes like this....

"Life's one thing i can never understand, people say that life is in our hands. I have been trying to run away from it, but i think i have not moved an inch. Sometimes i think of killing myself. I thought that this way would really help, it was then i started to realize. I really should go on with my life, many people say i'm insane. But do they know how deep is my pain? I'm only human. I have feelings too, but do these people really have a clue? Do my friends really understand me? Or do they only believe what their eyes can see? Am i being true to all of them? Or am i just using them??

It's hard to love a person that shouldn't love, you know its wrong but you keep going on. Until your heart breaks and your head aches, until everything seems like a big mistake. It's hard to give your love to someone who doesn't returns it, cause you'll get sadness instead. And your world becomes black with no colours for you to see, with no happiness for you to cherish. It's hard to express your feelings to the one you love, cause you're scared they'd down your love. But loving a person doesn't need a lot of reason, as long as u know that they are really.. really important."

February 8, 2009

Pictures of Mandy

Credits to Nizman for the photos. Beautiful photos. Thank You!

February 6, 2009

25 Things You Should Know Before...

1 I'm shy. when it comes to public speaking,or standing in front of a crowd.

2 I Love the sea, but i'm scared of it too.

3 I'll get cranky or moody if i don't get enough sleep.

4 I will be a quiet person when i am hungry.

5 Bites my nail if i'm hungry or bored or there is a loose skin.

6 I Love dogs!

7 I tend to think too much, I just do.

8 I Love mangoes (the green ones), top it off with salt (lots).

9 I Love Donuts. Croissant. Buns. Bread.

10 UNAGI, SALMON. Sushi... One of my weakness.

11 I Love weird things. It's very interesting and unique.

12 BIG Dreams. But too shy to reach it. Low self confidence.

13 Music is a passion of mine.

14 Wish to play a musical instrument, because now i don't know any. SAD.

15 Believe in the LAW OF ATTRACTION.

16 Lovesssss Pixelate/8bit stuff.

17 Singer and Performer? Want to be,but not there YET.

18 Friends? Love them. But no real ones though.

19 Wish to be someone who people look up to.

20 I Wish to have a tattoo!! If my parents let me. Boo..

21 I wanna feel Loved. Loved as in a partner to you. Does it really exist?

22 Like the feeling of physical pain.

23 Forget only on things that is not important,Who i saw yesterday?

24 Hates the rain when i'm out. Loves it when i'm sleeping.

25 I wish someone would make a song about me and sing it to me :)

February 1, 2009

AF Audition on 31st January

Here's some pictures from the audition yesterday(31st January 2009). Sorry my pictures are not that clear,too many people,plus my camera 'buruk'. hehehe.

Here's AF artist Nubhan,Shawal,Nadia,Ebi and Riz with the fans dancing.

Sorry kaburrrr...

This is where the AF contestants sat,waiting for turns to go for the audition.

Ezat and Dol with other contestants waiting patiently for their turns.

Everybody was preparing themselves before the audition,practicing and all.

January 30, 2009

I Can't Believe It!!!!

I'm at 1Borneo now,sitting down at McD with my laptop. Two of my friends(Ezat&Dol) joined AF audition today so i kinda accompany them la. Anyways,what i wanted to talk about is about my audition yesterday(30th Jan 2009,FRIDAY). The night before the audition i went home late,cause i went to my friends CNY open house at Luyang. Around 12 i got back,i straight away went to sleep,to get enuf rest for my audition day. But sadly i can't sleep! my eyes were closed,but my mind is still thinking about the audition and the song that im suppose to sing is still playing in my head non stop.

Then the morning comes,i woke up at 7am. i wanted to borrow my mums car,so i have to send them to work early in the morning. then back at my house,i took my shower make myself look beautiful(haha!) and get ready for the 'BIG DAY'. at 9am i went to fetch my friend at his house,One of my friend Dol(yes same guy who join the audition today) is joining the audition with me too. We left the house at around 10.30am,went to fetch my other friend at Tg.Aru and waited like 1hour for him to get ready,but it was worth the wait because it made me calm down a bit. So 11.30am off we go to 1Borneo! reach 1Borneo at about 12.30pm,the registration was at the South Atrium Lower Ground Floor.

There were not many people there yet since it was a weekday,but it did freaked me out for a while because we saw a stage being set up in front of crowds,so i thought i'm gonna be dead if i perform in front of a big live audience. But i just made myself brave with the support form my family & friends,somehow my 'semangat' to go on are strong. of course there's time i was like "sia nda mau ikut laa! Mari pulang!" but yeah,there's no turning back already. i was already seaten at the waiitng place for contestants to take turns. I was contestant number 0294.

There were almost 400 contestant that day,lucky we were a bit early. So the audition had 4stages. 1st stage they will gather around 20 people and bring them to this one big room,with two people seating in front of a table(the judges). One of them looked familiar,but i don't know his name. there's no microphone no music and all,just to of the judges,you and the other 19 contestant. So while waiting for my turn my friend dol was number 0293,so i was after him. it was his turn,he sang Josh Groban-You Raise Me Up. Sadly he didn't go through 1st round(that's why he join lagi today).

Then it was my turn,the judges called my name,i stood in front of them. Then one of the judge said "canthek name" i just smiled. Then they asked me about my photo(the photo aunt Doris take that,yg ada d FB) they said it was beautiful picture and wasked where was it taken,i told them it was taken at KDCA la. Then they asked me to sing,i sang Karma by Cokelat,i was sooooo nervous that i forgot the lyrics,i just sang the first verse. then they just laughed and one of the judge said he like my tone of voice so he told me to sing another song,i sang How Do I Live by Leann Rhymes. Then they both were smiling,they said that im a good singer but i just have to lose the nervous feeling because at 2nd stage is more scary. i said okay,i can do this i wanna try. then i got thru the 1st round.

Then after 12people got thru the first round they took us to the top floor of 1Borneo where there was this BIG HUGE Ballroom,with cameras and Astro Crews there(all guys,Gila bah sikit mau pingsan). This time there were microphones but singing without music. The judge this time was Nurul and there's this guy(i xtaw nama,tp femes jg la). i was the 3rd person to sing,the 2people before me didn't get to the next stage. But they were good,seriously good. i was shocked they didn't get it,so it was my turn i sang the same song Karma. they asked me to sing a ballad song i sang How Do I Live,when i sang How Do I Live there let me sing for a long time,the song almost mau habis suda baru nurul said thank you and she put up the green card. in my heart i was like "WAAAAAAAAA!!!! I DAPATTTT!!! OMG!!!" they all clapped for me,and me with my wide smile went out to the room and went to the next stage.

The 3rd stage was at the end of the place. Now 3rd stage is where a lot of people didn't get in,because 3rd stage is the dancing part(OMG,I was freaking out). There were 3 judges,all famous ppl but i xtaw nama dorg,lupa suda. hahaha. Insde the room there is a TV where they see you if you look good opn TV or not. first they asked me to sing then they put on a song and asked me to dance. i danced like crazy,i danced like i've never danced before. hahaha. it was so embarrasing,there were crew people there too(all guys juga). before they told me to just give it all,nvm if its embarrasing just dance. so i did,then asked me ques like why i wanted to join AF,i answered so that i can learn more and expand my interest in music and singing and performing. Then they test my hearing and vocal where they press a tune from a piano and i have to follow that tune. Then i don't really remember what happened but i got th green card AGAIN. Once again i was so shocked but at the same time sooooo HAPPY,i shook hand with them then went to the 4th stage,the interview part.

In stage 4 there they just interview you about your life and i have to fill in a 13 page of form that asks you question that you never would think of asking yourself. hahaha. like your mum or dads favourite song,your favourite food drink dessert,etc. favourite author,favourite film director,which artist u wanna go out to dinner with,which artist u wanna giv presents,what fashion style u like and all lah(BANYAK SANGAT). it took me almost 2hours to finish,i haven't eaten the whole day,i only drank water,i got a very bad headache and is so very2 tired.

All of that chaotic day ends at 12am. Reached home i took my shower tell my very interesting stories to my mum and dad who was not asleep yet,then i went to bed. and today i woke up happy and being more confident in myself,knun2 rasa mcm artis suda laa. hahaha. i can't wait to watch the AF audition on TV,i hope i don't look silly in it. haha,wish me luck! because there's another level to go before being a 'pelajar AF',there's still the Peringkat Separuh Akhir where who was chosen will get in a camp,Music Camp. and from there they will choose who will go to the finals(the Diary AF we always see on TV tu finals la tu).

January 27, 2009

Getting Close

Waaaahhh..... the audition for AF is getting close.... and i'm still relaxing and dreaming... i try not to think too much about it,because if i do. I freaked out! It's this friday. OMG.... it's getting close. i have a job interview at SDB this thursday,and i'm not even worried about that. i'm only thinking about the audition. I just hope i do well,and don't get too nervous. Other than singing,i was thinking they would ask me to dance right?? like the previous AF,they were asked to dance. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DANCE! Warghhhh!!!.... Mayb i should just dance the POCO-POCO. hahaha.. i would look silly on TV.. Will post about the audition day later this friday lah..

January 24, 2009

Tell Me Why - Taylor Swift

I took a chance, I took a shot
And you might think i'm bulletproof, but i'm not
You took a swing, I took it hard
And down here from the ground
I see who you are

I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that you love me then you cut me down
And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you're around
And here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me why..

You could write a book on how to ruin someone's perfect day
Well I get so confused and frustrated
Forget what i'm trying to say, oh

I'm sick and tired of your reasons
I got no one to believe in
You tell me that you want me, then push me around
And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you're around
Here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me why.. you have to make me feel small
So you can feel whole inside you have to put down my dreams
So you're the only thing on my mind
I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that you want me then cut me down
I'm sick and tired of your reasons
I've got no one to believe in
You ask me for my love then you push me around
Here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me why Why, tell me why

I take a step back, let you go
I told you i'm not bulletproof
Now you know

Demi Cinta - Keris Patih

maaf kutelah menyakitimu
Aku telah kecewakanmu
bahkan kusia2kan hidupku
dan kubawa kau sperti diriku

walau hati ini trus menangis
menahan kesakitan ini
tapi kulakukan semua demi cinta

akhirnya juga harus kurelakan
kehilangan cinta sejatiku
segalanya tlah kuberikan
juga semua kekuranganku

jika memang ini yang terbaik
untuk diriku dan dirinya
kan kuterima semua demi cinta

jujur aku tak kuasa
saat terakhirku genggam tanganmu
namun yang pasti terjadi
kita mungkin tak bersama lagi

bila nanti esok hari
kutemukan dirimu bahagia
ijinkan aku titipkan
rasa cinta kita selamanya

January 22, 2009

Should I?? Shouldn't I??

Heyy heyy.....
The next AKADEMI FANTASIA 7 Audition is coming to KK on 30th and 31st of January 2009
at 1Borneo South Atrium. I'm thinking of joining it,or shouldn't i?

I get stage frights and gets very very very nervous singing in front of people. UNLESS it's karaoke lah,since you won't have to worry about forgetting the lyrics. hehehe. Friends giving me much support on joining it,they think i can do it(can i??). My Mum also gives me support on me joining it. I guess i just don't have the confidence yet,still i'm practicing the songs that are asked to be sang on the audition. You can't choose your own song,they have their own list of songs for you to choose from. Here's the List:

No One - Alicia Keys (R&B)
Kalis Rindu - Elyana (R&B)
Dikir Puteri - Noraniza Idris (Irama Malaysia)
Karma - Cokelat (Pop)
Tari Silat Melayu - Aisyah (Irama Malaysia)

Not much right?? Huhu. I chose Karma by Cokelat,That's an Indonesian band. If you want to know how the song goes, search it on YOUTUBE. At first i wanted to sing Kalis Rindu by Elyana,but i just want to try something new. It's okay though,i still practice that song just incase. Now still struggling on memorizing the lyrics,pening2. hehehe. I'm praticing other songs also,mana la tau they ask me to sing my favourite song kan. So now i'm just singing any songs that i know and im good at. huhuhu.

Hope i don't run off when its near the audition date already. hahaha. Wish me LUCK!
and hope i won't make a fool of myself on the audition. waaa...

January 3, 2009

Love Letter

The hopes of my heart, came crashing down. Nobody to support me, nobody there for me. I just wanna let you know that i really-really love you, eventhough you dont realize it at all... Life is so unpredictable. Changes always come along, in big or small ways.

I don't know what happened that this sudden change has turned my world upside down. I don't know exactly what it is, it just hit me, but there is something really special about you. It might be all the things I see on the surface,the things that everyone notices and admires about you, qualities, capabilities and a wonderful smile obviously connected to a warm and loving heart;these things set you apart from everyone else.

But it may also be the big things ... the person you really are that I hope to know more someday.And it might also be the little things ... the way you walk and all your actions. I receive so much joy just being able to see a smile in your eyes. I f I ever figure out the magic that makes you so special, I'd probably find out that it's a combination of all these things. You are a rare combination of so many special things.

You are really amazing. Inside of me there is a place where my sweetest dreams reside,where my highest hopes are kept alive,where my deepest feelings are felt and where my favorite memories are safe and warm. I find that you're on my mind more often than any other thought. Sometimes I bring you there purposely just to make my day brighter. But more often, you surprise me and find your own ways into my thoughts.

There are even times when I awaken, I realize that you've been a part of my dreams. Then during the day, when my imagination is free to run,it takes me into your arms and allows me to linger there knowing there's nothing I'd rather do. I know my thoughts are only reflecting the loving hopes of my heart because whenever they wander,they always take me to you. Only the most special things in my world get to come inside my heart and stay. And now, I realize how deeply my life has been touched by you.

I wish you would tell me to let go of you. I miss you more than you will ever know. I've loved you forever. I guess since you won't tell me to go, I'll continue on with the pain of not ever having you.Just tell me what you felt - that is all I need. I will always be here for you no matter what. It doesn't matter if you didn't and don't feel the same. I just need closure so I can sleep at night. If you miss me, find the brightest star I'll do the same for you.

I Love You.