When i was at my teen age(gosh! i'm NOT a teenager nemore). i Love writing down my feelings on a piece of paper,some i throw away some i just kept somewhere people can't find. So i was cleaning up my room this afternoon and stumbled upon so many papers and books that i've written down my feelings on. Some funny memories build up, some sad memories and some are just silly things that i wrote when i was in highschool.
Well,there's this note that really captured me. I myself was shocked that i wrote something that has a deep meaning to it. There's no date on it,but i know that i wrote this when i was in highschool. And it goes like this....
"Life's one thing i can never understand, people say that life is in our hands. I have been trying to run away from it, but i think i have not moved an inch. Sometimes i think of killing myself. I thought that this way would really help, it was then i started to realize. I really should go on with my life, many people say i'm insane. But do they know how deep is my pain? I'm only human. I have feelings too, but do these people really have a clue? Do my friends really understand me? Or do they only believe what their eyes can see? Am i being true to all of them? Or am i just using them??
It's hard to love a person that shouldn't love, you know its wrong but you keep going on. Until your heart breaks and your head aches, until everything seems like a big mistake. It's hard to give your love to someone who doesn't returns it, cause you'll get sadness instead. And your world becomes black with no colours for you to see, with no happiness for you to cherish. It's hard to express your feelings to the one you love, cause you're scared they'd down your love. But loving a person doesn't need a lot of reason, as long as u know that they are really.. really important."