I Can't Believe It!!!!

I'm at 1Borneo now,sitting down at McD with my laptop. Two of my friends(Ezat&Dol) joined AF audition today so i kinda accompany them la. Anyways,what i wanted to talk about is about my audition yesterday(30th Jan 2009,FRIDAY). The night before the audition i went home late,cause i went to my friends CNY open house at Luyang. Around 12 i got back,i straight away went to sleep,to get enuf rest for my audition day. But sadly i can't sleep! my eyes were closed,but my mind is still thinking about the audition and the song that im suppose to sing is still playing in my head non stop.

Then the morning comes,i woke up at 7am. i wanted to borrow my mums car,so i have to send them to work early in the morning. then back at my house,i took my shower make myself look beautiful(haha!) and get ready for the 'BIG DAY'. at 9am i went to fetch my friend at his house,One of my friend Dol(yes same guy who join the audition today) is joining the audition with me too. We left the house at around 10.30am,went to fetch my other friend at Tg.Aru and waited like 1hour for him to get ready,but it was worth the wait because it made me calm down a bit. So 11.30am off we go to 1Borneo! reach 1Borneo at about 12.30pm,the registration was at the South Atrium Lower Ground Floor.

There were not many people there yet since it was a weekday,but it did freaked me out for a while because we saw a stage being set up in front of crowds,so i thought i'm gonna be dead if i perform in front of a big live audience. But i just made myself brave with the support form my family & friends,somehow my 'semangat' to go on are strong. of course there's time i was like "sia nda mau ikut laa! Mari pulang!" but yeah,there's no turning back already. i was already seaten at the waiitng place for contestants to take turns. I was contestant number 0294.

There were almost 400 contestant that day,lucky we were a bit early. So the audition had 4stages. 1st stage they will gather around 20 people and bring them to this one big room,with two people seating in front of a table(the judges). One of them looked familiar,but i don't know his name. there's no microphone no music and all,just to of the judges,you and the other 19 contestant. So while waiting for my turn my friend dol was number 0293,so i was after him. it was his turn,he sang Josh Groban-You Raise Me Up. Sadly he didn't go through 1st round(that's why he join lagi today).

Then it was my turn,the judges called my name,i stood in front of them. Then one of the judge said "canthek name" i just smiled. Then they asked me about my photo(the photo aunt Doris take that,yg ada d FB) they said it was beautiful picture and wasked where was it taken,i told them it was taken at KDCA la. Then they asked me to sing,i sang Karma by Cokelat,i was sooooo nervous that i forgot the lyrics,i just sang the first verse. then they just laughed and one of the judge said he like my tone of voice so he told me to sing another song,i sang How Do I Live by Leann Rhymes. Then they both were smiling,they said that im a good singer but i just have to lose the nervous feeling because at 2nd stage is more scary. i said okay,i can do this i wanna try. then i got thru the 1st round.

Then after 12people got thru the first round they took us to the top floor of 1Borneo where there was this BIG HUGE Ballroom,with cameras and Astro Crews there(all guys,Gila bah sikit mau pingsan). This time there were microphones but singing without music. The judge this time was Nurul and there's this guy(i xtaw nama,tp femes jg la). i was the 3rd person to sing,the 2people before me didn't get to the next stage. But they were good,seriously good. i was shocked they didn't get it,so it was my turn i sang the same song Karma. they asked me to sing a ballad song i sang How Do I Live,when i sang How Do I Live there let me sing for a long time,the song almost mau habis suda baru nurul said thank you and she put up the green card. in my heart i was like "WAAAAAAAAA!!!! I DAPATTTT!!! OMG!!!" they all clapped for me,and me with my wide smile went out to the room and went to the next stage.

The 3rd stage was at the end of the place. Now 3rd stage is where a lot of people didn't get in,because 3rd stage is the dancing part(OMG,I was freaking out). There were 3 judges,all famous ppl but i xtaw nama dorg,lupa suda. hahaha. Insde the room there is a TV where they see you if you look good opn TV or not. first they asked me to sing then they put on a song and asked me to dance. i danced like crazy,i danced like i've never danced before. hahaha. it was so embarrasing,there were crew people there too(all guys juga). before they told me to just give it all,nvm if its embarrasing just dance. so i did,then asked me ques like why i wanted to join AF,i answered so that i can learn more and expand my interest in music and singing and performing. Then they test my hearing and vocal where they press a tune from a piano and i have to follow that tune. Then i don't really remember what happened but i got th green card AGAIN. Once again i was so shocked but at the same time sooooo HAPPY,i shook hand with them then went to the 4th stage,the interview part.

In stage 4 there they just interview you about your life and i have to fill in a 13 page of form that asks you question that you never would think of asking yourself. hahaha. like your mum or dads favourite song,your favourite food drink dessert,etc. favourite author,favourite film director,which artist u wanna go out to dinner with,which artist u wanna giv presents,what fashion style u like and all lah(BANYAK SANGAT). it took me almost 2hours to finish,i haven't eaten the whole day,i only drank water,i got a very bad headache and is so very2 tired.

All of that chaotic day ends at 12am. Reached home i took my shower tell my very interesting stories to my mum and dad who was not asleep yet,then i went to bed. and today i woke up happy and being more confident in myself,knun2 rasa mcm artis suda laa. hahaha. i can't wait to watch the AF audition on TV,i hope i don't look silly in it. haha,wish me luck! because there's another level to go before being a 'pelajar AF',there's still the Peringkat Separuh Akhir where who was chosen will get in a camp,Music Camp. and from there they will choose who will go to the finals(the Diary AF we always see on TV tu finals la tu).

Getting Close

Waaaahhh..... the audition for AF is getting close.... and i'm still relaxing and dreaming... i try not to think too much about it,because if i do. I freaked out! It's this friday. OMG.... it's getting close. i have a job interview at SDB this thursday,and i'm not even worried about that. i'm only thinking about the audition. I just hope i do well,and don't get too nervous. Other than singing,i was thinking they would ask me to dance right?? like the previous AF,they were asked to dance. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DANCE! Warghhhh!!!.... Mayb i should just dance the POCO-POCO. hahaha.. i would look silly on TV.. Will post about the audition day later this friday lah..

Tell Me Why - Taylor Swift

I took a chance, I took a shot
And you might think i'm bulletproof, but i'm not
You took a swing, I took it hard
And down here from the ground
I see who you are

I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that you love me then you cut me down
And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you're around
And here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me why..

You could write a book on how to ruin someone's perfect day
Well I get so confused and frustrated
Forget what i'm trying to say, oh

I'm sick and tired of your reasons
I got no one to believe in
You tell me that you want me, then push me around
And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you're around
Here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me why..

Why..do you have to make me feel small
So you can feel whole inside
Why..do you have to put down my dreams
So you're the only thing on my mind
I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that you want me then cut me down
I'm sick and tired of your reasons
I've got no one to believe in
You ask me for my love then you push me around
Here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me why Why, tell me why

I take a step back, let you go
I told you i'm not bulletproof
Now you know

Demi Cinta - Keris Patih

maaf kutelah menyakitimu
Aku telah kecewakanmu
bahkan kusia2kan hidupku
dan kubawa kau sperti diriku

walau hati ini trus menangis
menahan kesakitan ini
tapi kulakukan semua demi cinta

akhirnya juga harus kurelakan
kehilangan cinta sejatiku
segalanya tlah kuberikan
juga semua kekuranganku

jika memang ini yang terbaik
untuk diriku dan dirinya
kan kuterima semua demi cinta

jujur aku tak kuasa
saat terakhirku genggam tanganmu
namun yang pasti terjadi
kita mungkin tak bersama lagi

bila nanti esok hari
kutemukan dirimu bahagia
ijinkan aku titipkan
rasa cinta kita selamanya

Should I?? Shouldn't I??

Heyy heyy.....
The next AKADEMI FANTASIA 7 Audition is coming to KK on 30th and 31st of January 2009
at 1Borneo South Atrium. I'm thinking of joining it,or shouldn't i?

I get stage frights and gets very very very nervous singing in front of people. UNLESS it's karaoke lah,since you won't have to worry about forgetting the lyrics. hehehe. Friends giving me much support on joining it,they think i can do it(can i??). My Mum also gives me support on me joining it. I guess i just don't have the confidence yet,still i'm practicing the songs that are asked to be sang on the audition. You can't choose your own song,they have their own list of songs for you to choose from. Here's the List:


No One - Alicia Keys (R&B)
Kalis Rindu - Elyana (R&B)
Dikir Puteri - Noraniza Idris (Irama Malaysia)
Karma - Cokelat (Pop)
Tari Silat Melayu - Aisyah (Irama Malaysia)


Not much right?? Huhu. I chose Karma by Cokelat,That's an Indonesian band. If you want to know how the song goes, search it on YOUTUBE. At first i wanted to sing Kalis Rindu by Elyana,but i just want to try something new. It's okay though,i still practice that song just incase. Now still struggling on memorizing the lyrics,pening2. hehehe. I'm praticing other songs also,mana la tau they ask me to sing my favourite song kan. So now i'm just singing any songs that i know and im good at. huhuhu.

Hope i don't run off when its near the audition date already. hahaha. Wish me LUCK!
and hope i won't make a fool of myself on the audition. waaa...

Life's Loveable Instructions

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Love Letter

The hopes of my heart, came crashing down. Nobody to support me, nobody there for me. I just wanna let you know that i really-really love you, eventhough you dont realize it at all... Life is so unpredictable. Changes always come along, in big or small ways.

I don't know what happened that this sudden change has turned my world upside down. I don't know exactly what it is, it just hit me, but there is something really special about you. It might be all the things I see on the surface,the things that everyone notices and admires about you, qualities, capabilities and a wonderful smile obviously connected to a warm and loving heart;these things set you apart from everyone else.

But it may also be the big things ... the person you really are that I hope to know more someday.And it might also be the little things ... the way you walk and all your actions. I receive so much joy just being able to see a smile in your eyes. I f I ever figure out the magic that makes you so special, I'd probably find out that it's a combination of all these things. You are a rare combination of so many special things.

You are really amazing. Inside of me there is a place where my sweetest dreams reside,where my highest hopes are kept alive,where my deepest feelings are felt and where my favorite memories are safe and warm. I find that you're on my mind more often than any other thought. Sometimes I bring you there purposely just to make my day brighter. But more often, you surprise me and find your own ways into my thoughts.

There are even times when I awaken, I realize that you've been a part of my dreams. Then during the day, when my imagination is free to run,it takes me into your arms and allows me to linger there knowing there's nothing I'd rather do. I know my thoughts are only reflecting the loving hopes of my heart because whenever they wander,they always take me to you. Only the most special things in my world get to come inside my heart and stay. And now, I realize how deeply my life has been touched by you.

I wish you would tell me to let go of you. I miss you more than you will ever know. I've loved you forever. I guess since you won't tell me to go, I'll continue on with the pain of not ever having you.Just tell me what you felt - that is all I need. I will always be here for you no matter what. It doesn't matter if you didn't and don't feel the same. I just need closure so I can sleep at night. If you miss me, find the brightest star I'll do the same for you.

I Love You.