When i was at my teen age(gosh! i'm NOT a teenager nemore). i Love writing down my feelings on a piece of paper,some i throw away some i just kept somewhere people can't find. So i was cleaning up my room this afternoon and stumbled upon so many papers and books that i've written down my feelings on. Some funny memories build up, some sad memories and some are just silly things that i wrote when i was in highschool.
Well,there's this note that really captured me. I myself was shocked that i wrote something that has a deep meaning to it. There's no date on it,but i know that i wrote this when i was in highschool. And it goes like this....
"Life's one thing i can never understand, people say that life is in our hands. I have been trying to run away from it, but i think i have not moved an inch. Sometimes i think of killing myself. I thought that this way would really help, it was then i started to realize. I really should go on with my life, many people say i'm insane. But do they know how deep is my pain? I'm only human. I have feelings too, but do these people really have a clue? Do my friends really understand me? Or do they only believe what their eyes can see? Am i being true to all of them? Or am i just using them??
It's hard to love a person that shouldn't love, you know its wrong but you keep going on. Until your heart breaks and your head aches, until everything seems like a big mistake. It's hard to give your love to someone who doesn't returns it, cause you'll get sadness instead. And your world becomes black with no colours for you to see, with no happiness for you to cherish. It's hard to express your feelings to the one you love, cause you're scared they'd down your love. But loving a person doesn't need a lot of reason, as long as u know that they are really.. really important."
To love and be loved is a wonderful feeling that God gave us, yet it can be very painful and hurting. It's how life goes in this world you've got to learn and understand that hurt and pain is part of life. Don't let it drag you down, keep looking at the bright side. So be strong, be wise and be merry. be thankful to God you have parents and siblings who loved you so much more.
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ReplyDeletemayb u akn abaikan apa yg i akan tulis.mayb yes mayb not.if not,i really appreciate it.
mandy,kita akn rasa amat kecewa apabila orng lain meragui keihklasan yg telah kita berikan apatah lagi orng yang rapat dgn kita.kesakitan yg terpendam pasti amat perit.tapi percaya satu perkara bahawa jika kita terus menghulurkan sesuatu perkara dgn keikhlasan yg berterusan tanpa meminta sebarang balasan,orng lain akn hargai dan memahami diri kita tanpa perlu kita memintanya.
keihklasan lahir dari hati yang murni tanpa sebarang keraguan mahupun paksaan.
mencintai sangat indah perasaanya dan jgn sesekali jadikan ia sebagai beban kepada kesakitan.cinta perlukan dua hati menyatu untuk membangkitkn rasa bunga cinta dalam hati.bertepuk sebelah tangan tidak akan berbunyi dan begitu juga dgn cinta.
kadang2 kita perlu lepaskn sesuatu benda/perkara yg kita amat sayangi dan hargai demi masa depan yg harus kita tempuhi.kita doakan yang terbaik,berikan yg termampu dan jika itu bukan takdirnya,kita harus melepaskan dgn kerelaan hati walaupun hati merana.setiap kehidupan yg dilalui pasti tercoret kepelbagaian warna.
kamu bahagia.punya keluarga yg menyanyagi kamu.apabila kamu semakin meningkat kematangan,kamu akan sedar bahawa antara cinta yng paling agung adalah cinta keluarga.
saya doakan kamu sentiasa mendapat kebahagiaan yang kamu inginkan dan juga berdoa agar kebahagiaan sentiasa terpancar di muka kamu.
"1001 kegembiraan tidak bererti kita dapat menyembunyikan segala kesedihan yg terpendam.kadangkala ia perlu diluahkan agar diri tidak terseksa."
saya pernah lakukan kesilapan dan dari kesilapan saya belajar untuk melepaskan sesuatu perkara yang saya teramat sayangi.merana dan kesakitan,tapi itu kehidupan.dan ia juga merupakan satu pengorbanan.
mandy masih muda,banyak lagi peluang dan jalan yg panjang untuk ditempuhi.be strong girl and just be urself.berikan yag terbaik dan termampu.itu sudah memandai.
take care mandy,
-[N]-
to kakak,Thank you for the advice ya... =)
ReplyDeleteto -[N]-,thanks also for your advice..
will keep that in mind..
appreciate it a lot..
thanks on checking out my blog...
Wah! a very good advice from a good friend. And thats what a friend for. Life is always a challenge....Love is a beauty but it also can be very painful sometime.
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